Love like I'm not scared

There is a song on the radio lately that has been really challenging me. The song is called "Fix My Eyes" and it's by For King and Country. In the song the main character is speaking of what he would do differently if he could rewind his life. But what he says he would do is probably one of the most intense life challenges I've ever heard. Here is what he says:

"I'd love like I'm not scared
Give when it's not fair
Live life for another
Take time for a brother
Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all"


While all these lyrics are very important in my life right now, one truly stuck out to me. This line says, "Love like i'm not scared." But why would you be scared of love?

Well, I'm scared of loving. You see, over the past year, God has been really calling me to a certain people group, and with it a certain part of myself I have tried to hide. It is a group that simply mentioning here will probably bring a lot of controversy. It is something that when revealed can change lives and take away friendships. But God has been calling me to take his love and his truth into this people group and there is simply no way I can deny that, no matter how hard I have tried. Needless to say, I am scared.

So when I heard this song on the radio, it was like God was telling me what to do and how to do it. I am to love like i'm not scared. Not to not be scared but to love, both this people group and the groups that hate them, like I'm not scared. I need to give when it's not fair. I have to take my life and live it for another. I can't live this for myself. I can't worry about what will happen to me. I have to take time out for others. I have to stand up and fight for the weak ones. Even if I am a weak one, that is not what God is calling me to right now. I have to speak out for freedom, even when it terrifies me. I have to find faith in this battle, and stand tall but above it all. But how on earth am I supposed to do that? I can't do any of that... especially now. I am terrified of this. But I know that God is calling me to this. So what do I do?

Well... the song answers that. The next part goes:

"Fix my eyes on you" and the bridge continues with

"The things of Earth are dimming
In the light of Your glory and grace
I'll set my sights upon Heaven
I'm fixing my eyes on you
I'm fixing my eyes on you"


So that's what it comes down to. Fixing my eyes of God. Not taking my eyes off of Jesus. Only when I keep my eyes of God will the things of earth begin to dim. Only then will I be able to love like I'm not scared. Only then will I be able to see beyond the risk I'm taking and realize the message God has called me to carry.


So I'm fixing my eyes on you.